(seperti janji ditulisan sebelum2nya, jika saya memiliki pasangan/pacar/kekasih kelak, saya berjanji untuk menghapus semua hal yang berkaitan tentang masa lalu ataupun hal yg tak sepantasnya ada di dalam diari ini. walau sudah cerita usang memang, tapi saya menghargai apa yang sudah saya pilih dan miliki sekarang. Ini cerita saya yang baru dan bahagia, jadi saya akan memulai cerita baru dengan pilihan terbaik saya)
Selamat datang, masa depanku.
as I've said before, I'm always looking forward to live a life story. Sour, sweet, bitter, all mixed into one. Especially in my romance. I deliberately write my diary specifically on this page about the love story that I've been through. yes 'Y & Y', the initials name of which the story between me and my boyfriend started.
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My boyfriend is Yudi, full name is 'Pande Gede Yudi Artana'. Incidentally we've known for a long time, so we also be friend first and he was my friend in the college and also classmate with me hehe >.< i think this story beyond my expectations yeah where i don't suspect that my choice is already in front of my eyes :)
I also don't think it would end like this, though our love story through still early. I thought i would be dating someone else that i often write in this diary. but someone even my old friend who had a crush on my boyfriend now. whether this miracle, but i'm very grateful that God has answered all my prayers. yup, especially in matters of love.
my experience about my love story and in the end i chose Yudi, when I was assessing him when we were both first entered in same college.. indeed unfortunate, but he didn't like me HAHAAA he just considers me a friend usually. yeah no probs.
over time, my love affair with Yudi when it does not stop there. I still secretly care and attention him. filled with twists and turns when viewed back to back. And he also had a relationship with the girl senior campus. as well as the same time without any planning, i have a boyfriend too. it's just for me going out in order to cover up feel of my sadness when there is a conflict between me with Yudi before. I want to feel happy too even though i'm sad to see him (Yudi) with someone else.
as time went on, i was just going out with the former running very short. yes honestly, i don't really love my-ex, it's just hmm why i chose my ex because he came at the right time when i feel lonely and sad as it was. heheu so fuckup right? Similarly, the love story Yudi, he also underwent the same love with a short love story that i had. and in the end my love story ends and Yudi with his-ex also ended. (lagi-lagi sama)
Our love story after undergoing solitude again. we still became good friends on campus. and we are also classmate and used to joke together >,< either with the passage of time, Yudi close friends loves me. oh dammit men. and when togetherness that often we do every day makes Yudi realized that I still loved him. And at the same time also, Yudi can't do anything when his close friend says that he likes me too, on the other side... Yudi also loves me.
maybe likes: "Tresno suko kulino"
and this is makes Yudi confused to say that he loves me too. and when it was beginning to show and Yudi ventured to show a sense of love and affection to me.
I don't think that Yudi suddenly acting strange to me. he further demonstrate the attention to me. and sometimes i was always bullied by him :| At that time i just try to act normal with him. It's just that i always secretly keep caring him as well.
Sometimes too, my friends ask me: "Do you still like Yudi until now?" and i had to pretend tough to say: "hmm i guess i have no more feeling with Yudi".
Then, all the rumors about a Yudi close friend who also loves me was spread among on campuses. And the same time, Yudi trying to catch up and get my love back.
like what i said earlier: "God is looking at me and said: I'm saving this one for someone special".
and i always believe and have faith in God will give me someone at the right time and with the right person. And indeed, the Lord gave Yudi to me. although previously filled with struggle which in the end, i was really happy with my choice. and i don't regret what has happened previously with regard to me and Yudi.
when we each know that we both love and cherish each other. when we are also in a state that is not a right time. Where Yudi knew that her former lover is expecting Yudi back into hers. However, Yudi did not want it to get back his ex girlfriend anymore. Yudi only just be sure to be mine forever. really difficult for us to state with each other :')
And we decided to undergo the relationship : 'Backstreet'. We intentionally to cover up this relationship because the moment is still not right to tell everyone. Besides, we also actually still be in a state that is not right time :( Undergoing relationship 'backstreet' is really torturing us both. If we can not meet in person to express these feelings of affection, but yeah we are feeling awkward. And we really want to live closer.
as well as Yudi, relations 'backstreet' really tortured him. Not to mention Yudi see the other guy friends who approached me, joking, and laughing. and Yudi could only see me from a distance. yes, he jealous with me.
Because Yudi strong determination, i don't think that he would say the truth with his friends. He said that he likes and loves me. However, Yudi felt bad against whenhis close friend who also loved me. Yudi is really a dilemma and also could not help feeling in love quietly.
I don't think that Yudi suddenly acting strange to me. he further demonstrate the attention to me. and sometimes i was always bullied by him :| At that time i just try to act normal with him. It's just that i always secretly keep caring him as well.
Sometimes too, my friends ask me: "Do you still like Yudi until now?" and i had to pretend tough to say: "hmm i guess i have no more feeling with Yudi".
Then, all the rumors about a Yudi close friend who also loves me was spread among on campuses. And the same time, Yudi trying to catch up and get my love back.
like what i said earlier: "God is looking at me and said: I'm saving this one for someone special".
and i always believe and have faith in God will give me someone at the right time and with the right person. And indeed, the Lord gave Yudi to me. although previously filled with struggle which in the end, i was really happy with my choice. and i don't regret what has happened previously with regard to me and Yudi.
when we each know that we both love and cherish each other. when we are also in a state that is not a right time. Where Yudi knew that her former lover is expecting Yudi back into hers. However, Yudi did not want it to get back his ex girlfriend anymore. Yudi only just be sure to be mine forever. really difficult for us to state with each other :')
And we decided to undergo the relationship : 'Backstreet'. We intentionally to cover up this relationship because the moment is still not right to tell everyone. Besides, we also actually still be in a state that is not right time :( Undergoing relationship 'backstreet' is really torturing us both. If we can not meet in person to express these feelings of affection, but yeah we are feeling awkward. And we really want to live closer.
as well as Yudi, relations 'backstreet' really tortured him. Not to mention Yudi see the other guy friends who approached me, joking, and laughing. and Yudi could only see me from a distance. yes, he jealous with me.
Because Yudi strong determination, i don't think that he would say the truth with his friends. He said that he likes and loves me. However, Yudi felt bad against when
when his friends know the truth that we love each other. In the end Yudi's close friend support Yudi feelings. And at that moment we both began slowly to show this relationship seriously without being covered up. yeah, finally.
really something which i had expected. someone who turns out to be saved by the Lord and he is Yudi. I had no idea that i had been waiting for a prince to come, but it turns out the prince was in front of my eyes.
And finally i try to live this love story with him. trials and struggles among us so that we can put together. we felt so much in common and we can also be covered with a shortage of the advantages of each. I'm happy and really grateful that all the love during this struggle, awaiting and also the feeling of sad about love. but I don't regret of what God has given now.
now I've Yudi has. as did he just belongs to me. I look forward to the future, he was my last option and he was my future. *astungkara*
<3
really something which i had expected. someone who turns out to be saved by the Lord and he is Yudi. I had no idea that i had been waiting for a prince to come, but it turns out the prince was in front of my eyes.
And finally i try to live this love story with him. trials and struggles among us so that we can put together. we felt so much in common and we can also be covered with a shortage of the advantages of each. I'm happy and really grateful that all the love during this struggle, awaiting and also the feeling of sad about love. but I don't regret of what God has given now.
now I've Yudi has. as did he just belongs to me. I look forward to the future, he was my last option and he was my future. *astungkara*
<3
Jogjakarta, 14th February 2014.
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Yap, yuka gak nyangka. cuma hal itu yang bisa yuka simpulkan. Karna selama ini yuka diajak muter-muter sama Tuhan, diajak dan dikenal berbagai macam jenis spesies cowok yg ada di muka bumi ini dan ternyata pacar Yuka ada di depan mata. Diluar perkiraan Yuka, karna yuka awalnya gak terfikir bahwa Yudi kelak jadi pacar Yuka. emang ya.. gak ada yang tau rencana Tuhan.
Ya, penuh lika liku cerita cinta yuka dan pada akhirnya bisa mentok di Yudi. Dimana kita disuruh tahap kenal dulu, terus temenan, terus temenan baik, terus ada konflik, terus juga nahan suka duka canda tawa bareng, dimana Yudi harus berpacaran dengan org lain dulu, dan yuka juga pacaran dgn org lain juga. dan sama2 gak berlangsung lama, trus juga ada realita cinta segitiga. Tapi itu semua berakhir dengan adanya kita. iya Yuka dan Yudi.
Entah bener juga kata orang, Perjalanan Hidup itu gak selalu lurus2 aja, pasti ada aja rintangannya, ada lubangnya, ada kerikil dan juga berbelok-belok. dan hidup juga gitu. Tapi setelah melewati semua rintangan yang ada kita bakalan dapet hasilnya. iya mau itu hasil yang baik ataupun sebaliknya tergantung dari perjuangan dan perbuatan selama diperjalanan tsb. Nah begitu juga dgn urusan cinta Yuka. selama 4 tahun. pacarannya? bukan. Jomblnya. dan sempat menjalani hubungan singkat dan berakhir ngepet. Yuka akhirnya mendapatkan suatu kado yang gak ternilai harganya, bahkan gak bisa dibandingkan dengan nominal uang ataupun barang mewah lainnya. Yap, Yudi adalah kado terindah selama perjalanan cinta yang yuka alami. tsaahh.. ya anggap saja begitu. edisi tulisan penulis lagi kasmaran.
Seseorang yang tanpa disadari pernah dan lebih dulu yuka posting dan tulis di diari ini yg mengenai dia , eh ternyata dia lah orangnya. gak foto, gak cerita, ternyata dialah orangnya. dan Kalian seneng gak kalo misalkan seseorang yg udah disiapin buat kamu datang disaat yang tepat dan waktu dan tempat yang tepat? dan hal ini juga yuka rasakan ketika Yudi emang hadir disaat waktu yg tepat.
yaa walau Yuka harus menunggu, menahan rasa, menyembunyikan rasa, dan ternyata Yudi merasakan hal yg sama. Dulu yang cuma bisa nulis nama dia dengan nama samaran, skrg udah bisa Yuka tulis dengan langsung tanpa harus disamarkan dan tanpa disembunyikan lagi. Yuka rasa gak ada yg perlu disembunyikan tentang kisah ini. Yuka merasa yuka ingin berbagi cerita agar mereka semua tahu apa yanng sebenarnya terjadi tanpa harus beropini sana sini mengenai saya ataupun Yudi.
Kami berdua tau , kami saling terbuka , kami persis seperti kakak adik, teman dekat, dan bahkan seperti orang tua kita sendiri. tidak ada satupun diantara kita untuk merasa gengsi dan canggung. dan hal itu yang benar2 yuka harapkan ketika menjalani hubungan.
"Aku mencintai kamu dengan segala yang ada di dalam diri kamu, bagi ku gak ada kata kurang di dalam diri kamu. Kesempurnaan memang mustahil ada, tapi untukku, kamu lah sempurna"
Biasanya, Valentine days itu hal yg biasa aja bagi yuka. Tapi khusus di tgl 14 Februari 2014 kemarin, Tuhan menyaksikan peresmian kisah kami. Kebersamaan yg penuh kebahagiaan. Di waktu , di tempat, dan juga dengan orang yang tepat kami disatukan.
Dan momen ini, gak akan pernah kami lupakan.
Saya menyukai Yudi bukan berawal kenal ia adalah seorang Gitaris @Angka_Ganjil yg banyak digemari, saya menyayangi Yudi bukan semata karna materi berlimpah. Saya mencintai Yudi karena saya menyukai dan menyayangi dan menerima segala apa yang ada di dalam diri Yudi. dan saya berhasil membuktikannya.
Ini kisah kami, saya harap tidak ada satupun yg bisa atau ingin masuk ke dalam kehidupan kami untuk menghancurkannya. Masuklah dan turut berbahagialah, bersama kami.
Dan terima kasih, Yudi adalah pilihan terbaik saya. yang tidak hanya mencintai saya, tetapi juga mencintai keluarga saya. tidak terkecuali adik kamvret saya, Wicak.
Sekarang, saya tidak tersenyum sendiri lagi. Melainkan tersenyum bahagia bersama orang-orang yang saya sayangi. Tuhan, lindungilah mereka selagi saya tidak berada disamping mereka.
-yp
